every door that slams in my face

Every door that slams in my face, I will offer up in prayer;

So I give you every breath that I have, you can work miracles,

all you need is my, amen.

I surrender.

Take my fears, my inhibitions, all my burdens, my ambitions

you can use it all

no gift, is too small.

I trust in you.

I sometimes feel like there a thousand reasons why I should give up but I'm stubborn in the things I believe. Making this decision has been 2 years in the making but I believe that every step I've taken has brought me closer to the Lord and closer to knowing that miracles do happen. I'm sometimes so close to giving up but when I imagine the greatness that I can achieve, I get so motivated to carry on doing what I do.

It's sometimes so difficult when God plays such a silent yet important role in your life. You still your heart to hear God but hear nothing sometimes and people say, listen harder and you ask them how. It really is all about patience. Impetuousness? Forget it, you're just slipping down a slippery path of naysayers and nullity.

You know, its okay to cry. It's okay to just break down and bare your soul. I know it's difficult to stay true to your dreams ; what with thoughts of self worthlessness and hazy futures but it doesn't last forever. People always think that successful futures are the end points but they never seem to realise that our futures are all the tiny steps we take to get there. Its going to be difficult and crazy but that's what it's all about. Life isn't about choosing safe routes, it's about stretching your mind beyond limits you never thought achievable.

You want to go overseas for an education but have no money? Challenge yourself, take our loans, chart alternate educational paths, there's always a way out. No matter the challenge.

Lois, I know your thoughts and I love you all the same,

God.