the girl that conquered

This is an exercise I'm trying out. Method acting the literary edition :)



i've always known this song and loved it but I never really fully appreciated it. I was listening to this song again this morning and I felt this ache of mounting failure in my being. I don't believe my ache stemmed from the contents of the song but more so the language of the music. Its like something in the music speaks to me about my past, present and future.

and I guess what pushed me over the edge,



all I really wanted to do was run and run and run. Just run away to that small enclave where the past, present and future are anti matter.

and you could have it all, my empire of dirt. I wear this crown of thorns upon my liar's chair, full of broken thoughts I cannot repair beneath the stains of time; The feelings disappear.

if I could start again

a million miles away

I would keep myself

I would find a way 

(following paragraph to be read when "hurt" is playing from 2:32- 3:43)

I don't want it anymore. You can have it, you can have it all. Just take it. Take it away. I don't need it anymore!!! Take it. Take it! I like having simple wits, I like being ignorant to it all. Take it away. I DON'T WANT IT. GO AWAY. GO AWAY! I DON'T WANT IT!!! 

i don't know how to handle it:(

just let me be. 

End of exercise. Thank you for being part of my social experiment.